Is it unrealisic to want someone who doesn’t drink, smoke, or do anything else as a potential partner? Living in a country where those things are the norm, and you are seen as weak for not doing them makes it extremely difficult to find anyone at all. At times I feel like he only person in all of the balkans who doesn’t drink. I’d rather die of natural causes than smoke, and would rather kill myself than vape. Not that I want to die in the slightest, but I find death preferable to drug use. I wish I could say that “I let people enjoy things”, but I’m a serial hater, whether it be gatekeeping bands, or hating the bourgeoisie. I think I only brcame straight edge due to being traumatized by other peoples drug use (something that I’m not gonna get into now). To me it like a very individualist “solution” to drug use. I can’t help but put people down for whatever they do (finding out someone smokes instantly makes me think less of them), and that is a personal failing that is going to take some time to rectify. Seeing someone you love resorting to self medication instead of pursuing help is a horrible thing to see. There are definetly easier ways to learn not to hang out with the bourgeoisie than traumatising yourself. But this is definetly getting in the territory of self-pity, so it’s best to leave this rant here.