Nothing in the world seems to help. I spent forever trying to find something to watch, but literally nothing felt good. Even when I eventually put something on it felt empty and I just ended up staring at the wall. I tried playing videos games, some of which I really love, and I turned them all off after a few minutes. I’ve tried other things too. Half the time I don’t even eat. Time passes in slow motion, like some kind of purgatory. The worst is I can’t even sleep. I have the next few days off and they’re going to feel like an eternity. It actually scares me. How do you get through this? I’m desperate.
For what it’s worth, I see a therapist weekly and I’m on a few different medications. This particular bout of sadness is caused by an especially painful rejection.
Sounds like you’re depressed to me. My advice is learn to tolerate enduring pain then do things while you’re not happy and even irritated.
To make it more tangible you play video games past the few minute mark and you make it a chore to get past the intro cinematic or tutorial level. You might not enjoy video games at the end of it but like you’ll feel a little different.
I would say get curious to help you with what you’re going through but I’m not sure if you’d have the inherit joy or exploring and you’d have to explore things by sheer force of will
Edit: you could use sheer force of will to try other people’s advice.