I’m middle aged. Since I was a teen I’ve had bouts of my life where I’d rather feel nothing at all than continue to be depressed. I’m on meds for anxiety already and have had depression throughout my life. I have never been on strong enough dose to make me feel numb but I hear people talk about it. Honestly, it sounds appealing. My life has been mostly negative with small periods of positive. On the whole, I think I’d be better off a robot than permanently end things, IYKWIM.
tldr - people sometimes complain depression meds make them numb, as a bad thing, but that sounds appealing to me. Has anyone done that on purpose and how was your experience?
If you’re routinely abusing prescription medication to self medicate, you need to tell your doctor ASAP so dosage can be adjusted properly, or switched to a more effective medication.
Because obviously if you double dose a prescription medication, that means you have to skip a dose later.
Like, adjusting dosage is a normal part of being on medication, you might just need a slightly higher dose because some tolerance built up, this is why they start with low dosages. Needing a slight increase is 100% normal.
But what you’re doing is making the problem worse, it’s not fixing anything.