Took a long time to realize I was the problem. Tried to kill myself at one point cause it felt like the whole world was against me. Ended up in a psych ward where I was diagnosed. Autism, adhd, aspd (antisocial personality disorder [sociopathy/psychopathy]).
So I devoted myself to just trying to be better. I try to help people as best as I can and developed my mantra as corny as it sounds. “Just don’t make the situation worse. I don’t have to make it better just don’t make it worse”
I still wrestle with it all and long term complex relationships are almost impossible which leads to loneliness and guilt but I’m very stubborn so I keep pushing forward regardless.
Honestly it all just feels torturous but here I am.
What was your process of understanding and dealing with these strong emotions?
Took a long time to realize I was the problem. Tried to kill myself at one point cause it felt like the whole world was against me. Ended up in a psych ward where I was diagnosed. Autism, adhd, aspd (antisocial personality disorder [sociopathy/psychopathy]).
So I devoted myself to just trying to be better. I try to help people as best as I can and developed my mantra as corny as it sounds. “Just don’t make the situation worse. I don’t have to make it better just don’t make it worse”
I still wrestle with it all and long term complex relationships are almost impossible which leads to loneliness and guilt but I’m very stubborn so I keep pushing forward regardless.
Honestly it all just feels torturous but here I am.