I honestly hate myself for still feeling this way at 23. Whenever I’m out, I always feel like the ugliest girl in the room, and it literally makes me feel completely worthless. It sucks watching how nicely everyone treats beautiful women. Nobody ever says anything mean to them. Guys are always looking out for them, and other girls always have their back. They get this pass in life that I’ve never had. No one has ever helped or protected me except my parents.I’ve learned to just rely on myself, because my parents won’t be around forever and nobody else gives a damn about me. Maybe this is how it should be.
Conventionally attractive person here. You’re not wrong. I know I suck and bring little to any situation. I really don’t have that umph I see a lot of people with, just a black hole of anti charisma.
For some reason the things I say come across as me being mean, but I’m not trying to be mean or rude. I just suck and get really anxious and the things I say come out wrong, and then as a nearly 6 ft tall good looking lady it seems like I’m a snob, but I’m not.
I re-read my post, I didn’t mean to imply that ALL attractive people were like that. It was just ones that have come and gone in my own life.
In your case maybe people get more offended than they really should because they’re intimidated/jealous. I’ve not been on that side of the fence but I could see that being an issue. Also just in general I think people are less forgiving of women who don’t act how they want, which sucks and isn’t your fault. Maybe try self-deprecating humor if you haven’t. That’s what I switch to if I feel like I’ve said something insensitive to someone unintentionally. Or just apologize. Socializing successfully has always been a very “fake it til you make it” thing in my experience just keep trying and the anxiety will get better, or you’ll at least learn to navigate around it.