As expected, my nausea is back like I knew it would be. I think I’m anxious about getting better because I feel like-
- what does cured even look like? A month without symptoms? 6? a year for a year? How do you determine when you’re good?
- I also feel like I wouldn’t be given the time to assess this myself. I don’t know if it’s just my impression, but I get the impression that if I announced to my doctor, case worker etc that I felt better, they would drop me and put me back to work ASAP without leaving me time to process and decide when I’m ready.
Regardless I went to breathe some fresh air this morning and then my brother came to talk to me, and that was enough to send me instantly. It was manageable, but it’s definitely back lol.
Considering the timing and what happened before I had this ‘good’ period I’m inclined to think SIBO. This is basically bacterial overgrowth in the gut which leads to disorder. It can lead to temporary lactose intolerance which happened to me twice (that was fun to find out while I was having constant nausea lol), and in some cases it can also get better for up to a week.
Welp, I’m getting tested for SIBO in october so there’s not much to do for it but wait.
The second interesting thing is that talking to my brother, he talked about his panic attacks he had some 15 years ago and I realized a lot of his triggers are basically the same as mine - including the cold. Previously I was seeing a psychiatrist and her opinion was that my symptoms were too ‘strong’ so to speak to be psychosomatic. But I don’t know, I also got the feeling this was all a bit out of her depth. Apparently there is some supportive evidence that pulmonary embolisms can be caused by stress and anxiety/panic, and I was pretty stressed out around the time I got my PE. But I’ve never had a panic attack and I don’t plan on starting haha.
Keep in mind, every specialist I see thinks my illness is one from their specialty, and then it turns out it’s not.