I feel the need to thank you all for providing a ML space to read theory and get my news from. I’ve realised that had Lemmygrad (and adjacent spaces like Prolewiki, Tankietube and Matapacos.dog) not existed, not only would I still be a liberal, but I would also have gone mad from not understanding a damn thing of what is happening right now in the world.

Granted, I still need to improve (Still haven’t joined a party, still hide the fact I’m a communist to friends) but I’ll work on that.

Also, about my parents being left leaning: I was very wrong. My father is literally a liberal politician^TM who believes in european supremacy, while my mother just tags along. The former has very confused knowledge about Gramsci, and believes the fascist EU is the pinnacle of democracy (“why else would Africans die to reach us” and other instances of colonial mentality); I don’t think I’m capable enouth to make him change. The latter is otherwise not into politics, and I might have made her interested in communism, but I’m afraid I’m not well equipped to satisfy said interest; I’m not a good divulgator and lack the knowledge needed.

Capitalist flavors of thought are pretty bizarre. You get Nihilist Flavor, which is like “everything is impermanent and meaningless, enjoy it while you can, YOLO.” And you get Cotton Candy Health Flavor, which is like “you should try to live in a sustainable way; be healthy, exercise regularly, eat your vegetables, brush your teeth, sleep well… why? shoves ‘so you can work longer for the capitalist’ under the rug… uh, so you can savor the Nihilist Flavor for much longer”.

“But I want to be a part of something that matters.”

“Oh yes, so we’ve got Product Fandom, Colonized Religion, ‘Family’ Workplace, and a variety of cults.”

“Aren’t all of those cults?”

“Stop resisting!”

did a ton of yard-work today for a lady; planted three beds, filled 5 more, did some work on a chicken-coop and each one of those beds needed a good 50/50 mix so it was a removed turning them after weeding all of them.

made good cash, I’m happy about it.

(Content warning for mentions of mental illness and general hopelessness)

I am super depressed. I also have PTSD, anxiety, autism, and OCD. I am super tired of nearly everything triggering me, and I hate my parents for not understanding how painful having numerous mental illnesses is (they probably caused some of them).

To make it worse, I still have no idea where I should apply for jobs (I hate the deceptive nature of having to lie on your resume just to get a job) and I have no idea where to even get housing.

I feel lost and angry and depressed all at once. Every problem is intertwined in other problems, so even if I solved one, others would appear after I cut off one.

Why do I have to suffer so much when the dogs that I would rather not call my parents live with such arrogance? I am tired.

Also please do not recommend me therapy because I have no job and only a limited amount of savings I have to keep for apartment rent in the future. I am also not comfortable with other people replying to my comment with their own venting.

Edit: I am doing better now. I will go sleep.

I was watching the Eurovision final in the bar and me and some other people were booing Israel whenever they came on. Some people had scorecards and I could see that some of them had scribbled out Israel. Right before the final result was revealed me and another girl who was booing Israel in the bar were holding hands in suspence and when finally Bulgaria won the bar went wild. Great to see.

Things are not looking good in Bolivia, folks. The US is planning to destroy the resistance there while US puppets are rushing to the aid of the neoliberal puppet Rodrigo Paz.

Striking workers have erected barricades blocking highways in every region of the country.

What’s the downfall of Trump going to look like? I feel like he’s going to get to comfortable age and die while MAGA far outlives him. He was useful in building the movement but I have to imagine the billionaire class is ready for him to kick the bucket here soon so he’s out of the way

A lot of people don’t trust certain parts of society such as the homeless and I understand why. I wouldn’t trust a mafia boss or a mobster, someone with a record for willingness to do crime against the defenseless. It’s a fascist mentality.

However I would like to add my two cents with brief experience of homelessness and just general interactions with a broad section of lumpen. Be it street musicians or prostitutes. Sadly I only have anecdotes on my side which is part of the issue, it’s very difficult to do empirical research on this subject and avoid biases.

In my brief experience of homelessness the only person who immediately approached me was another homeless person. He immediately noticed that something wasn’t right with me and came with advice, in the meanwhile I’ve likely had more than a 1000 people walk past me without a care and you might wonder why didn’t I go to an institution? Well because they dismantled them.

Marxism is based on Dialectical-Materialism, it means the body is the mind is the body and practical experience is necessary for change to happen. You cannot simply “fix” someone with a mental exercise. I think many Chauvinists dismiss the lumpen because they toss them a book and expect class consciousness to sort it out. It’s not that simple, change needs structure that supports it.

I have found this one of the major weakness of the modern day left movement. There is a lot of effort trying to pull down the petite bourgeoise, not a lot of efforts pulling up the disenfranchised. It ends up being left upon a religious institution, the Heartfelt liberal or the extraordinarily rare mutual-aid group. All of which get infiltrated by the right.

I have never encountered a communist in the presence of the “lower classes” but I have had reactionaries try to befriend me and idk if people realize how far the influences of 1 neo-fash can spread. So this guy I will call him Measurehead, because that’s what his personality was like, yeah a competitive racist. But the guy literally inserted himself anywhere and he’s been all the way to China and around. Which has really bothered me because this is the kind of people who go around to the lumpen everywhere and spread their ideology. This one guy has probably ended up influencing hundreds by now if not more. And he was so good at gathering a crowd around him it’s like scary to see. The way how he immediately could spot who to turn to in order to gather a crowd around him.

It scares me because the sort of people who get co-opted by the likes of him include people who would be willing to work tripple shifts for half of the pay. Regardless how one feels about the downtrodden, you’re going to have to deal with them. That is a fact. This is the reason why I have been trying to shine a little bit of a light on the issue. It’s not just because I’ve read Mao or Malcom or Che, although I believe their personal life experiences had influenced them to arrive to similar conclusions.

Is it weird that I mostly call refer to trump as Donald or Donny instead of president trump?

lamine yamal you goated son of a gun

Edit to add context, he raised a palestine flag at some like celebration through spain. safer place to do it but it’s still awesome, and he’s young and mega famous. i dont know anything about football though. however… he also did go to dubai and make a long ass vid about it which is corny as fuck.

Hello peeps! I know that SlayGuevara said that I could link the mutual aid post in the mutual aid community, but I asked Moderator GrainEater and they said that it is ok (content warning for abuse towards children): https://lemmygrad.ml/post/11615234?scrollToComments=true

Edit: They were banned (they did not post with an account in Lemmygrad, so it was part of another site that banned them)! The posts were removed as a result.

I was able to set up an appointment with that new place I was trying to go to! and got in rather quick to which is kind of surprising since my previous doctor, I had to like schedule four months ahead of time. But instead of dealing with that one place that refused to give a referral, I called the other place and talked to them about it and they were able to get my medical records and one of the medical staff reviewed and accepted it.

It is still really ridiculous that one place refused to write a referral, like again. It all just to set up an appointment to see someone. It’s not as if I was asking for something big.