Exercise feels good & makes me think clear productive positive thoughts. There is no physical pain involved. The mental & physical pain begin when I stop exercising.
Currently in the waiting room for dermatology appointment because my post-op breast cancer scars aren’t healing properly.
And any day now my prescription driving glasses should be ready to pickup at the eye care building.
And the psychiatrist & I have been at an impasse since 2022 because she refuses to prescribe me vyvanse although it’s the only medication I’ve ever taken that makes me feel normal.
So unmedicated, I get hospitalized occasionally to prevent killing myself.
Meanwhile physical therapists have come in clutch helping me through my excruciating lordosis & medial epicondylitis & bone spurs/ bursitis in my shoulders.
Sounds like you are playing life on hard mode. Hang in there. I’ve had periods of life when it’s been difficult but it got a lot better. Sometimes random events happen, you meet someone, and things feel better.
Uhh glad you got in the VA system but I think you don’t just need a new psychiatrist, you need a new country. Which of course is easier said than done.
Believe me I’ve thought of going to Mexico to get Vyvanse but I need to be sure the source is reputable & safe. I have no idea how to navigate all that madness so in the meantime continue life on hard mode.
Ah tbh I was hinting that you should live in a country with a better healthcare system than the US if you have so many issues. But like I said, easier said than done unfortunately.
Personally I’ve tried Concerta and Elvanse (same as Vyanse) and the latter helps me keep concentration, but it doesn’t help me take control of WHAT I concentrate on. Which is why I’ve written 1000 word essays on shitposts on Elvanse while I was supposed to work. Concerta did basically nothing. Glad to hear Vyanse helped you more, personally I’m not even sure what to try next, if anything. I’m the idiot paying way too much for a psychiatrist in a country with universal healthcare, but that gives me access to psychiatrists who are actually interested in modern developments in their specialty, don’t immediately consider you a drug addict for wanting to try ADHD meds (yes, I’m diagnosed, otherwise they wouldn’t prescribe it to me), and usually have available timeslots in a week or 2 at most when I’m scheduling an appointment. My current one is about 35 years old and it’s important with ADHD because the 60-70 year old ones will literally tell you that you’re just looking for amphetamine and go get laid(if you’re a man with any issues whatsoever)/have children(if you’re a woman with depression for an example)/whatever because that will solve all your problems. I’m not kidding either.
Does the VA only give you access to that one psychiatrist or are there others you could see about your issues? I’m not American (only visited once), but I’ve known people that lived there and I… happen to know how some people have gotten better healthcare through, well, omitting some facts in eligibility checks.
Does the VA only give you access to that one psychiatrist
Yes in my current location I am stuck with this one psychiatrist. She has several psychiatrists working under her, and I always get assigned a new doctor among those people, but before they’re allowed to approve the Vyvanse they have to pass it by her first, and she tells them NO even if they were about to approve it. She has been the bane of my existence for 4 years. I even left for 2 years and came back and she’s still here and hasn’t forgotten her grudge against me.
She’s like the doctors you describe, she’s decided in her own head that ADHD medications are invariably dangerous and she treats me like I’m a rabid drug-seeker and there’s no way I can make it any more clear to her that I’ve literally never even tried or wanted to try or seek any drugs whatsoever in my entire life. I’ve literally never drank alcohol, I’ve never smoked anything, I’ve never taken a pill that wasn’t prescribed to me, I don’t even drink caffeine unless I have a rare occasion I really need a nootropic, I use it rarely because the tolerance builds up too quickly. And I even had her call my previous doctor on the phone, the doctor who originally prescribed me Vyvanse 15 years ago on the other side of the country 🤦🏼♀️ There is just no getting through to this lady, so my last 4 years of laziness & dread & unproductivity & confusion & worthlessness…I dedicate all that despair to HER.
I guess the exercise stopped your brain from thinking and that’s why it felt good. Sometimes physical pain is much easier than emotional pain.
What do you do in the medical care system now?
Exercise feels good & makes me think clear productive positive thoughts. There is no physical pain involved. The mental & physical pain begin when I stop exercising.
Currently in the waiting room for dermatology appointment because my post-op breast cancer scars aren’t healing properly.
And any day now my prescription driving glasses should be ready to pickup at the eye care building.
And the psychiatrist & I have been at an impasse since 2022 because she refuses to prescribe me vyvanse although it’s the only medication I’ve ever taken that makes me feel normal.
So unmedicated, I get hospitalized occasionally to prevent killing myself.
Meanwhile physical therapists have come in clutch helping me through my excruciating lordosis & medial epicondylitis & bone spurs/ bursitis in my shoulders.
Sounds like you are playing life on hard mode. Hang in there. I’ve had periods of life when it’s been difficult but it got a lot better. Sometimes random events happen, you meet someone, and things feel better.
Uhh glad you got in the VA system but I think you don’t just need a new psychiatrist, you need a new country. Which of course is easier said than done.
Believe me I’ve thought of going to Mexico to get Vyvanse but I need to be sure the source is reputable & safe. I have no idea how to navigate all that madness so in the meantime continue life on hard mode.
Ah tbh I was hinting that you should live in a country with a better healthcare system than the US if you have so many issues. But like I said, easier said than done unfortunately.
Personally I’ve tried Concerta and Elvanse (same as Vyanse) and the latter helps me keep concentration, but it doesn’t help me take control of WHAT I concentrate on. Which is why I’ve written 1000 word essays on shitposts on Elvanse while I was supposed to work. Concerta did basically nothing. Glad to hear Vyanse helped you more, personally I’m not even sure what to try next, if anything. I’m the idiot paying way too much for a psychiatrist in a country with universal healthcare, but that gives me access to psychiatrists who are actually interested in modern developments in their specialty, don’t immediately consider you a drug addict for wanting to try ADHD meds (yes, I’m diagnosed, otherwise they wouldn’t prescribe it to me), and usually have available timeslots in a week or 2 at most when I’m scheduling an appointment. My current one is about 35 years old and it’s important with ADHD because the 60-70 year old ones will literally tell you that you’re just looking for amphetamine and go get laid(if you’re a man with any issues whatsoever)/have children(if you’re a woman with depression for an example)/whatever because that will solve all your problems. I’m not kidding either.
Does the VA only give you access to that one psychiatrist or are there others you could see about your issues? I’m not American (only visited once), but I’ve known people that lived there and I… happen to know how some people have gotten better healthcare through, well, omitting some facts in eligibility checks.
Does the VA only give you access to that one psychiatrist
Yes in my current location I am stuck with this one psychiatrist. She has several psychiatrists working under her, and I always get assigned a new doctor among those people, but before they’re allowed to approve the Vyvanse they have to pass it by her first, and she tells them NO even if they were about to approve it. She has been the bane of my existence for 4 years. I even left for 2 years and came back and she’s still here and hasn’t forgotten her grudge against me.
She’s like the doctors you describe, she’s decided in her own head that ADHD medications are invariably dangerous and she treats me like I’m a rabid drug-seeker and there’s no way I can make it any more clear to her that I’ve literally never even tried or wanted to try or seek any drugs whatsoever in my entire life. I’ve literally never drank alcohol, I’ve never smoked anything, I’ve never taken a pill that wasn’t prescribed to me, I don’t even drink caffeine unless I have a rare occasion I really need a nootropic, I use it rarely because the tolerance builds up too quickly. And I even had her call my previous doctor on the phone, the doctor who originally prescribed me Vyvanse 15 years ago on the other side of the country 🤦🏼♀️ There is just no getting through to this lady, so my last 4 years of laziness & dread & unproductivity & confusion & worthlessness…I dedicate all that despair to HER.