fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.
oh no you can feel different levels of shit for sure, you can have suicidal thoughts then it stops… I don’t know psychology all that well. manipulation is more intuitive for me. i mean that as more context for what i actually mean
That doesn’t necessarily mean psychopathy or narcissism in a clinical sense. Being manipulative is sometimes a coping mechanism people learn from their parents.
I highly suggest seeing a therapist to figure it out.