fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.


Good sleep is important, especially after a night of introspection. It’s not a couple of days thing, it takes months to change a single habit. Keep at it and youll turn around in no time and think “i used to be like that”