fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.
You’re a little narcissist. You’re relentlessly gas lighting. Trying to convince me I’m wrong.
I enjoy hostility from others because I can undermine the hostile people, make them crash out, and they can’t do shit other than get called out for playing the victim.
If someone is nice or neutral to me then I have to deal with the guilt that I’m manipulated and attacking their ego
you have no idea wtf you are talking about.
you’re clearly just trolling, and just defined what being a troll is.
Yeah seen that before. Narcissist want to believe I’m being insincere to protect their ego. I’m trolling or rage baiting.
But if you believe I have no idea what I’m talking about then you don’t need my approval
this entire thread you admitted many times to seek emotional gratification from other people.
you just keep contradicting yourself… and seem to see nothing wrong with this. OK.
Like the word emotional gratification? Or are you referring to be a narcissist and that I trying to control people to meet my ends.
I’ll share this with you. People will still treat you like a shitty person even as you start out working on yourself, you’re gonna have to really fucking suffer, then on top of that put even more work on top of that. It’s not gonna be easy or even gratifying for a while, if you put in the work, you’ll make connections with people.
When your suffering starts to drop then you’ll know your on the right track