• Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
    2·
    27 days ago

    Lucky!

    Can’t wait till I get to Zaragoza.

    Living over 20 years with your narcissistic abusive Dad until the divorce forces him t finally leave is terrible.

    So done with Virginia and the United States by extension lol

    • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
      3·
      27 days ago

      I am very lucky tbh. My mental health would have already ended me if i weren’t lucky to have a good support system in my friends and family

      • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
        2·
        27 days ago

        Yeah, I don’t.

        I hate my Dad and his entire family.

        I hate my Mom’s side of the family too.

        I only really love my Mom.

        I don’t like my two siblings. They are loyal to my Dad and go to visit him in Türkiye occasionally.

        They are likely co-dependent.

        One is a narcissist.

        • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
          2·
          27 days ago

          I hate mine too, but they do like me and they have familial loyalty and helped me out with money lol.

          They are not antagonistic towards me, but they are racist and bigoted in other ways.

          Yours seems much worse to live with 😬

          • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
            1·
            27 days ago

            Yes, my younger sibling who I really cared for as a child is fascist now.

            He keeps veering any conversation we have into, erm, topics of ethnicity.

            Also, the transphobia.

            He literally has done the Hitler salute because it pisses people off or because it’s “funny.”

            I don’t want to interact with him anymore.

            It’s usually just “good morning” here and there so he doesn’t suspect that I legit hate his guts now.

            But the truth is, I can’t wait to not see him ever again.

            (Also, no, he doesn’t know that I am a transfem lol)

            • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
              2·
              27 days ago

              Ugh yikes. My eldest brother is part of the local AfD devision (our alt-right party here in germany), so i do somewhat get it actually. I am, again, more lucky, because i am by far the youngest in my family and everyone moved out before i was born.

              I truly wish you good luck. That is a rancid situation and it must be hard to steel yourself every day.

              • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
                2·
                27 days ago

                Thank you.

                I do indeed steel myself every day.

                I have a mask and armor.

                I don’t know who I am beneath it all.

                I don’t know if I really know what person I am or who I am.

                I am ready to find out ig

                I am ready to move on.