Nothing in the world seems to help. I spent forever trying to find something to watch, but literally nothing felt good. Even when I eventually put something on it felt empty and I just ended up staring at the wall. I tried playing videos games, some of which I really love, and I turned them all off after a few minutes. I’ve tried other things too. Half the time I don’t even eat. Time passes in slow motion, like some kind of purgatory. The worst is I can’t even sleep. I have the next few days off and they’re going to feel like an eternity. It actually scares me. How do you get through this? I’m desperate.
For what it’s worth, I see a therapist weekly and I’m on a few different medications. This particular bout of sadness is caused by an especially painful rejection.
I can only recommend finding the root cause. Yeah, no small feat.
I thought and I might have had depressive episodes but the root was that I am an Autist and as such I had a completely wrong view of the whole situation and of me. This doesn’t make it better per se but it’s far more approachable.
Also had a therapist and while he helped me find that out he was no help for the resulting situation.
(edit: sorry for bad typing and autocorrect with bad eyesight lol)
I’m glad it sounds like you at least did figure it out. Sorry about your therapist though. Hopefully you found another one that could help.
He was pretty standard in like mother trauma and get your feelings and needs out. Nothing that I required help with per se, but still he helped me in my path.
A new one though is nowhere to be seen. I have pretty much given up getting a ‘professional’ diagnosis and a therapist that is able to cope with high functioning high masking adult autists. And that’s in a so called first world country.
But now I know who I am and what I need.