I cannot function without stress. I don’t work better under stress, I can ONLY work if I’m stressed. So all my life I’m rushing and hurrying artificially even if there is no objective reason to do that. This model was working great for me all my life until now when I’m in my twenties and my body is collapsing with GERD, proctological issues, bruxism, headaches, tinnitus, fibromyalgia… They say, “Oh, you just have to do things based on novelty and interes” but bitch you cannot make EVERYTHING interesting and new. When I start to give a fuck about everything and relax I end up doing no shit. And honestly I don’t know what to do. The meds they were giving me just cause the same stress artificially elevating my noradrenaline and the evening crush is even worse compared to days when I’m stressing myself on my own means. I feel myself in a “stress yourself out and die or don’t do anything and die as well” situation… Psychiatrist and meds, psychologist, supplements, weekly meetings in ADHD support group, physical activity, good sleep, good nutrition, all these ergonomical lifehacks like “pomodoro”, “make the task easy”, “just divide the task into subtasks”, “reward yourself”, “body double”, “listen to podcasts while cleaning” etc… All this shit is not working. There is no brand new method left that I haven‘t tried and I’m deeply frustrated. I can only stress myself out until my body completely desintegrates. Just venting
I’m glad you found something that works for you!
Would you mind elaborating on your workout? When and what primarily. e.g. What are you doing with the backpack full of weights, and are you doing this when you wake up, just before bed, just before chores, etc.
Thanks, I hope everyone can find physical activities that work for them. If you don’t use your muscles you lose them. I change it up depending on muscle group throughout the week but it’s mostly just basic curls, overheads, squats, sometimes lawnmower pull type workouts for the back. I invested in an adjustable dumbell recently but there’s very little difference between that and a backpack. Any time day would benefit me but it’s easier to get started in the evening when I’m worrying about sleep for the next day again.