I did get messed up by some anxiety and have these thoughts rolling through my head so I’ll leave it at cosmic horror warning.

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I’m not religious but I have thoughts about experiencing consciousness and what it is. I say that consciousness is independent of memory because we forget, clearly dependent on our physical body, etc. generally I do say that we don’t know consciousness so maybe it can be reconstructed (in the can’t rule out the possibility way)

So I can see scenarios were my conscious could pop into existence without my memories after I die (as I’m writing this I realized that’s nothing to fear).

I am trying to adopt healthier mindset of looking at everything in life as a quest, new things are a call to action, and that it’s okay if everything I do amounts to little in x number of years (worked out okay for ozymandias, right?).

Im probably just rambling because my life has got boring and monotonous along with actual fear of American politics.

  • Venus_Ziegenfalle@feddit.orgEnglish
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    23 hours ago

    This will sound crazy if you aren’t spiritual whatsoever. It’s based on my personal experience with meditation and psychedelics, countless chats with other metaphysically versed people, video essays and I also studied philosophy. Before all that I used to be strictly atheist. Also if something I write doesn’t resonate just let it fly, everyone has to walk their own path.

    I think the whole universe is basically god experiencing himself. The division between maker and creation causes the tension that facilitates time and space. It’s like we as humans are all part of God’s mirror image. That means our soul is, the ego isn’t divine. It’s not neccessarily bad either, it’s just that it’s a tool distinctly different from the true self. This true self can be found, unearthed if you will. The first step is acknowledging that you are more than your thoughts. The rest tends to fall into place when the time is right.

    From what you wrote I feel like you are half way there already. So as you start being present in the moment you may start feeling your soul living inside your body and you may also start identifying with this energy rather than the body that houses it or the thoughts it experiences. This is something you need to experience for yourself though, it can’t sufficiently be put into words. True faith is evidence based, with the evidence being inside of you.

    But anyway as that starts to happen you will naturally get a feel for eternal life and what it may or may not be like. I’ve realized that the soul can’t be fractured like the mind can (mainly because since discovering mine I no longer suffer from depression and social anxiety) so if it is always whole there is reason enough to believe that it won’t just vanish once you stop breathing.