At the time i was reading Bookchin and was a staunch libertarian socialist. So maybe my moments were back further… I never got into meme sites until later, avoided online almost entirely from 2010-2014, out of circumstance (living in tents while trying go to school and such). I think my pivotal moments were based on: reading increasingly reactionaty books and finding their problems (my “put down in disgust” points were ER Eddison’s The Worm Ouroboros, as well as Atlas Shrugged, specifically when the copper baron has a tirade about altruism). But in general growing up, i was in–closet trans in male dominated spaces, so my own identity and femininity and increasing preference for femme spaces and friendships helped keep stopping me from taking the red pill/black pill.
At the time i was reading Bookchin and was a staunch libertarian socialist. So maybe my moments were back further… I never got into meme sites until later, avoided online almost entirely from 2010-2014, out of circumstance (living in tents while trying go to school and such). I think my pivotal moments were based on: reading increasingly reactionaty books and finding their problems (my “put down in disgust” points were ER Eddison’s The Worm Ouroboros, as well as Atlas Shrugged, specifically when the copper baron has a tirade about altruism). But in general growing up, i was in–closet trans in male dominated spaces, so my own identity and femininity and increasing preference for femme spaces and friendships helped keep stopping me from taking the red pill/black pill.