It hasn’t been that much longer of a break for me (4 and a half day weekend), but new years doesn’t usually have me going to several dinners like Christmas or Thanksgiving and I actually got some really good rest, but I’m extremely upset at the idea of going back to work, it doesn’t help that I don’t like my job, but I’m too the point that I want to breakdown and/or quit. I’ve had similar experiences in school, and I’m curious to see if others have this or just me
I think a lot of people feel this way when they come back from break.
Especially if you hate your job, it makes sense that it adds to your feelings of being overwhelmed. The ADHD certainly doesn’t help either. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this pressure, my friend.
I’m not officially diagnosed, but I do get that feeling too when I have been on break. The transition from being on break to going back to work or vice versa is difficult for me.
I like routine. If I could choose, I think I would like for every single day to have the same structure with no breaks except for the ones I choose willingly. Christmas time is one of the worst for me because it is a holiday I don’t have any control over. I can’t postpone it or change it. It comes every years and if I’m not ready for it, it will disrupt my routine completely for two weeks (in my country Christmas break lasts two weeks).
I have accepted that breaks are necessary and that the world doesn’t spin to the tune of my needs, so I try to deal with it as best I can.
My Christmas break ended a few days ago and since Monday, I have barely slept. I have racing thoughts, restless limbs and I feel stressed about work. I love my job and I’m really good at it, but the transition from one state to another is always difficult. It just is. Sometimes I hate it because I’m in a really good workflow and I don’t want it disrupted. Other times I’m so exhausted that the thought of having to get back in the treadmill causes me endless stress.
It’s rare that the transitions are easy. My spouse is not struggling with a hyperactive mind like I am, so he doesn’t lie awake at night with racing thoughts and all that, but he does feel tired and exhausted after a break and it always take him a few weeks to get back into flow. I think it’s a universal human experience to go through this, but if you have a disorder like ADHD or like in my case, ADHD-like symptoms, then it feels extra difficult to get back on track, because being on track is so hard in the first place.
Big hugs to you! I wish you the best, my friend.