As people have pointed out, I constantly crave attention and validation on a “pathological level”. People have said I’m a covert narcissist, most likely, and I constantly feel like I NEED to post to get my feelings out and have the attention on me, then I delete it when I don’t get that validation. I constantly have to explain to others why I’m right rather than take accountability because I start to spiral and hate myself if I don’t. However, someone said I don’t have it because I don’t bully others when I don’t get what I want.
I also feel like I may be too self-aware for it, though I don’t generally like or care enough to look inside myself and have to think hard about it just to reach a conclusion about who I am.
Best way would probably to be properly diagnosed. There’s a lot of overlap between different disorders and it’s probably not the best to try and diagnose yourself. The Internet can be really harsh at times so relying on social media for validation probably isn’t going to help anything. Keep level headed, nonjudgmental people close to you.