I know nothing about boats but I learn fast and never forget.

I’m willing to do the jobs no one else wants.

My kids are grown, I’m divorced, retired at 35. I’m not quite forty yet.

I need to get away and I need to work impossibly hard like I’m used. I need to get away from the gun in my safe calling me.

I’ll work myself to death at any shipping job.

There’s got to be a captain looking for a newbie like that.

  • 418_im_a_teapot@sh.itjust.works
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    1 day ago

    As someone who has felt exactly the way you describe and am now on the other side of it, here’s my advice.

    1. Do not give up or shy away from that feeling that you need to completely get away from your present surroundings. You don’t want to look back in 10 years and wish you had taken the opportunity when you could.
    2. Don’t foolishly think that getting away like this will fix everything. It will help, but new problems will also emerge and if you haven’t addressed the demons in your head, you’ll never truly escape them. Therefore…
    3. Get the treatment you need and make sure it works before you end up in the middle of nowhere with no options and no escape. The gun is only a concern because it’s convenient. When you’re desperate, anything becomes convenient. The ocean becomes convenient. Get your brain fixed.
    4. If you already tried to get your head right and it’s not working, get to a state where Ketamine is legal and schedule an appointment at the clinic. It is life changing and worth every penny of the $2400 it costs.
    5. See number one. Fucking do it!