Part 2:

If we look at your profile more, we can see how deep this goes. Ecofascists tend to apply anti-natalism, and apathetic or doomer language to their futurities because it naturalizes the violence that is needed to maintain a capitalist, liberal system before it has happened while salvaging the perceived morality of its subscribers by constructing it as a result of the innate impurity of humanity rather than an imaginary future built from very specific values and assumptions. The kicker with your profile is the term “xenofeminist,” which draws specifically on technological posthumanism in its criticism of gender and heteronormativity. For those unaware, posthumanism is meant to effectively decenter humans (and therefore, settler-colonial norms that commodify the entire material world and all life in it) but more often reproduces liberal narratives where settler-colonialism, capitalism, and imperialism are natural human behaviours and that humanity is unretrievable from that impure nature save for the intentional transformation of the species (I hope I don’t have to explain more how this easily results in eugenicist arguments).

What a petulantly hostile and delusional meta-narrative laden analysis.

I’m an anti-natalist because I think it is unjust to bring someone into existence inherently. No one consents to being born. The “soft” is mostly to do with the fact that under certain theoretical societal conditions and acknowledgment by parents that they owe an eternal unpayable debt to their child I can see it as at least a forgivable grey act that can maybe lead to more good things than bad things if handled with great care.

I myself wish I was not born. I love my mom, she’s overall a good person for the most part, but shit… giving birth to me and my siblings was really fucked up of her.

I’m not an ecofascist. Ecofascism implies malthusian beliefs. Which is a collectivist idea: that individuals shouldn’t be born to protect society. This not what I am and its clear that’s what you prefer to see since you think in terms of naratives. I am an anti-natalist in order to protect the very individuals that would be born into existence itself. Greater societies can honestly get fucked if they rely on the suffering of individuals within them to exist. Societies and cultures themselves are not conscious entities, they are not morally equivalent to a person.

Also this re-occurring idea that I am “apathetic”… just fuck you. I am the way that I am because I have historically cared too much. And I’m fucking tired of caring. I still do and very much would like to stop caring but can’t. I’m in a mixed state of the anger stage and acceptance stage of grief. FUCK YOU.

A vacuum decay event would be an arguably humanitarian event. No more suffering. No more births. No more pain. No more inequity. No more petulant stupidity. Its not doomer to want an eternal peace for all.

Of course I “wish” for it with tongue planted firmly in cheek. I and many others already exist: the pandora’s box is open. And a future where I and many others do not exist is a lovecraftian horror, but I am indeed doomed to it. We all are. One day no one you know will be alive. If we could all live forever in peace and pleasure of course I’d prefer that, but I’m not delusional enough to think that will happen. Maybe ripping off the bandaid would be for the best if it’d prevent more people being born.

So, you’ve managed to create a narrative that, while apparently attempting to challenge or criticize fascist ideals, subscribes heavily to fascist historical narratives where the suffering and even eradication of particular groups is inevitable and in service of a more prosperous future for all, liberal constructions and relationalities of the material world that ultimately views any world that isn’t beholden to human desires (including humanity as a species) as not one worth existing in, and explicitly discounts the death and suffering of racialized groups in the US that have historically been the targets of genocide for centuries.

Fascists believe in a mystic occult ideals that their race or ethnicity as well as their land are supernaturally important. Fascists do not give a shit about people living lives worth living. That is not compatible with your analysis.

All of this while removing yourself from any sense of responsibility, since you cannot change the entire system by your will, and are powerless over the trajectory of these political and cultural developments and attributing guilt to some other group of people who also do not wield substantial power in this system and who subscribe to political action rooted in the same sense of inevitability, except in service of abolishing liberalism instead of maintaining it

I don’t really believe in free will. My blame of accelerationists is, if I take a lack of free will to an logical conclusion, simply a source of catharsis at this point. Me screaming into the void to feel something other than despair. Rage is preferable to despair.

So this “responsibility” talking point is intellectually a dead end for me.

But even if I did believe in free will and responsibility, in so far int those frameworks how am I responsible? I never choose to be born remember. I don’t owe you shit. You don’t owe me shit.

Are people born with an “original sin” of social responsibility?

A crucial element in liberal complicity with fascism as well as how many of them advocate for ecofascism is that learned helplessness that only views total, nearly baptismal change in a liberal system as the only goal worth struggling for. For many privileged liberals who are unused to fighting, the end of the world is preferable to struggling to achieve less than utopia. Whether you want to or not, you have apparently adopted fascism into your imagination of the future.

I would not describe my life as a privileged one. But if it is, than holy shit that just intensifies my belief that life is hell and I’m just in a slightly less firey part of it. That doesn’t exactly inspire me to think I ought to advocate people suffer more for the small chance of a slightly less shit existence.

Again though, that’s not fascism. Its really hard to believe you exist in the same reality as me when you keep describing these things as fascist. I’d say you aren’t being good faith, but this post is too prolific for that. You are probably just lost in the sauce.

I don’t fit into whatever “accelerationis,” is supposed to be, so please skip that as a response (and do not feel the need to respond at all), but I am deeply troubled by the amount of liberals I see who are going full fascist because of their disillusionment with this system; as though that isn’t the strategy that Democrats have adopted. Since I actually am in groups that fascists target and have been targetted by them my entire life, I’m understandably motivated to point out this kind of hypocrisy as I run into very many liberals who claim to know better for my people while siding with groups who want murder before anything else.

If you think that it doesn’t matter which party wins, what is your motivation to even bother with the voting discourse at all? Why do you fucking care?

I don’t understand what you are trying to achieve. Are you trying to do apologia for non-voting in 2024? Are you trying to guilt trip me into fighting and dying? Which one?

I’d say you could really stick it to me by voting red but then I cannot invest emotionally in trying to change people’s minds on voting. Eventually, I’m just going to vote blue for self interest and general harm reduction and shut up about it. I’ve learned my lesson: I can’t change people’s minds and get them to vote, so I’ll stop wasting energy trying to do that. In that sense your side has won.

edit: Also, I want to make it clear that the intent here isn’t to single you out as an intentionally and irredeemably evil deceiver, but to demonstrate to you as well as other liberals how the worldview that you have been socialised to believe has primed you to adopt fascistic thinking even when you do not want to be a fascist. Liberalism and fascism are inextricably linked because they have the same ideological underpinnings of humanity’s value and relationship with the material world. People who believe liberalism is inherently about democracy and acceptance, as they have been taught to believe, are not going to interrogate why that system has not produced an equal and benevolent society and therefore often conclude it is because it is not possible.

Except what you’ve described and what I actually am is not fascism. Neither is of them are fascism. What you’ve described is a smug malthusian liberal, shitty but not fascism. What I actually am is more of a despairing consequentialist turned cynical bitter egoist trying to not go insane.

Now that you’ve tried analysis of me as as you have, let me try: Your entire belief system is seemingly structured like a fairy tale. A grand narrative to justify suffering and pain. Motivated reasoning more or less akin to what religious people engage with. You condemn people for not jumping into fight the torment nexus for fear of falling into it. You think individuals owe the collective something when its the other way around. You chastise people for not being sufficiently virtuous and self-sacrificing and for seeking a better life away from the bullshit.