all stimulants in my country are banned completly, there VERYYY massive risk getting arrwsted even for bupropion
any non-stimulant which actually work also banned either very very very very controlled

only fcking atomoxetine for insane amount of money

  • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
    8·
    9 days ago

    hehehe moderating mood helps

    also my sensory shit distract on muscle tension sooo much

    i literally sayed that to my psych - “it looks normal!” but it getting me insanely feel bad hehe

    tried scheme

    • mention TMJ problem to get muscle relaxant
    • stupid psych sent me to orthodentist
    • orthodentist confirmed said muscle relaxants
    • sent message to stupid psych
    • get fucking tolperisone recommendation aka very expensive underresearched east bloc shit, when i saw the message i wanted say “fuck you” to psych but instead listened
    • get much much worse for days after one pill
    • said is shit and psych send me to neurologist (dumb) im not billionaire paying for another stupid neurologist and the free one has major waitlists since i still on pediatrican care until 18
    • self medicate again using tizanidine which i wanted from the start (hopefully i got it w/o prescribtion)
    • holy its cheap and worked from one pill after some hours!!!
    • continued, feeling aaa looooot more comfy in own skin less distracted and happy!

    the fun that similar structure clonidine can be used for ADHD stuff

    russia is asshole which thinks ADHD is western fake disease, which only possible in childhood and doesnt have in adults etc etc

    all stimulative, dopaminergenic meds are banned either very very very strong controlled

    okay i can live with this but is teeeeerrible, the worst is education/work/exams, and here im insanely “dumb” in other ppl view , basically i dont think i do united govr exam, next year, then college/uni will be much more awful for me i cant i cant just cant i hate society made for NTs, work? low paid maybe possible

    more worst is unability to get out from this asshole country

    • P00ptart@lemmy.worldEnglish
      4·
      9 days ago

      Damn. That’s rough. I did 41 years not knowing what was wrong with me. I can’t imagine knowing at a young age and not being able to do anything about it. We both have failed systems. It’s just wild how differently they’ve failed.

      • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
        5·
        9 days ago

        reeeeeeeaaalll, huuuuh for me there a lot of bullying from childhood, weirdness, feeeling of 3rd sort, feeeling veryyyyy disable etc etc etc, trouble understanding ppl, trouble properly socializing with ppl (sometimes pretty failed), trouble in school, delayed development(?) etc etc etc

        i am AuDHD soooo huuuuh adhd making tasks terrible, the system, basically there a lot things which i as always forgetting when saying

        there doc’s are faschists they usually claiming schizotypal disorder on me(hopeeeeefully it not leaked to psychiatry database i got blank harmless diagnosis in psych ward thank you mom)

        but there a correct answer is autism, especially having weirdness from 0 yo

        alsoooo hooow stereotypical i am trans girl toooo huuuuuuh but it doesnt make my life harder since i already neurodivergent and hopefully luck to start hrt early