Do y’all ever feel anxious about taking medication and just stop for prolonged periods of time?
I’ve stopped my meds for 6 months for reasons I’m struggling to discern… And I also have a tendency to skip doses and save my pills in a stash I never touch. I’m not even sure if most of them are useable because they’re so old… For some context, I’ve been using Adderall XR 20mg for 10 years now so I have a pretty good idea of how it affects me.
I finally took one of the newer pills today and I feel unbearably anxious about it, even before doing so. And it’s not like I’m anti-medication or anything, I’ve encouraged others to get tested and medicated because it substantially increases quality of life but there’s something about it that personally is causing distress.
Just looking for some insight with others that have felt the same.
That’s how you know you’re talking to the wrong doctor. “Just try harder” is not a solution to executive function disorders. If it were, I would have been a “straight A” student instead of a barely passing one. Stimulants revealed, among numerous other things, that I actually can do math and I’m not a complete and utter moron. My brain just has a physical defect whereby some parts of it are unable to sufficiently absorb neurotransmitters.
Through my extensive experience with doctors, I have learned that generally speaking – not always, mind you – doctors are familiar with their own narrow field and nothing outside of it. They also often have as much hubris than the average person and, much like the rest of us, tend to feel threatened by the unknown.
You need to find a doctor that that is either familiar with ADHD and how to effectively treat it, or one who is at least willing to work towards improving your quality of life and is willing to do some serious trial and error to that end.