As people have pointed out, I constantly crave attention and validation on a “pathological level”. People have said I’m a covert narcissist, most likely, and I constantly feel like I NEED to post to get my feelings out and have the attention on me, then I delete it when I don’t get that validation. I constantly have to explain to others why I’m right rather than take accountability because I start to spiral and hate myself if I don’t. However, someone said I don’t have it because I don’t bully others when I don’t get what I want.
I also feel like I may be too self-aware for it, though I don’t generally like or care enough to look inside myself and have to think hard about it just to reach a conclusion about who I am.
Thank you!! I am definitely anxious attachment
Oh girl! Do yourself a favor and get busy on loving you the way you want to be loved, and it may take a while journaling and/or some talk therapy, if possible. And don’t lean too far in for your first handful of diagnoses (or be upset or too skeptical). A therapist in the US must assign a dx within a couple or few visits, so it’s a working dx. The less substances you use for 30/60/90 so they can get a baseline of behavior/thoughts/feelings without those influnces, the better.
PS: you’re welcome, good luck!