I wouldn’t know, really. My therapists have been very lacklustre and it just felt like a venting session and none of them had any clue what my issue could even be. This article has done more for me than years of therapy.

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But also, in my case, I experienced therapy abuse several times with the therapists I had.

I have had 11 therapists so far since the year 2021.

I have switched therapists constantly.

Even the eighth therapist, who was better than the other therapists before her, abused me at one point, but I stuck with her because I was afraid of the next therapist being worse and maybe this one was as good as I could get, you know?

I am glad that she eventually terminated the client relationship due to the on-and-off-again no-shows, especially when I last had a job.

I found therapist later with PhD which is… honestly a godsend in this day and age and she is also an ADHDer.

However, she had to direct me to another therapist (my current talk therapist) because the practice that my current therapist works for specializes in neurodivergent clients as well as trans clients and also religious trauma too. She felt they might have more resources and had other things to attend to. I was glad she was at least very honest about it.

I also have a therapist now for ERP.

I always avoided ERP because I thought I could “tough it out.”

Now I don’t care whether I can or can’t.

I need to resolve my OCD pronto.

Oh, and my eighth therapist that I mentioned told me that I don’t have OCD (even when I was really interested at the time in either doing ERP or finding ways to ameliorate or see if I can reverse it in any way lol).

She kept doing CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy with me, just like all the other talk therapists that I have had here in Virginia.

When I would ask her for techniques on how to calm down or regulate my nervous system or some sort of mental technique that I could follow along to soothe my anxious thoughts, she would be like “Just keep questioning or giving a different point-of-view to your thoughts” or “We can get to that next week” or something like that.

Honestly, I am glad that I do box-breathing now lol

I was literally just asking for stuff like that, you know?

She would just give me those blank stares (along with the stuff she would say above).

But yeah lol I am glad I have my current talk therapist and my ERP there for OCD.

But now I really don’t expect much from any therapist nowadays.

If I get a good or great one in Zaragoza, when I get there, that would be awesome but that would probably be more of a lucky incident in my part, nothing more.

It’s like finding a block in Super Mario Bros. that gives you a mushroom that makes you big or whatever; you’re kinda just lucky to chance upon it, especially when you need it lol

Oh, and I am also AuDHD.