Unfortunately, the only way I’ve found to avoid this is to be on top of my responsibilities

Certain medicines take regimines to reach full effect, either because they need to build up in your system, or because they allow your body to recover while you are on them, which eventually causes a net gain. I believe stimulants are usually the latter.

When I’m unmedicated, fatigue builds up faster, which makes me more miserable overall, and that compounds. One dose of my med isn’t enough to wipe away all the exhaustion from being unmedicated for weeks. I have to be on it for a while before I get the full effect, which is essentially just being in a good mood most of the time ime.

I was recently sick myself, and did the same where I stopped taking my med. I now think that’s actually a mistake. I spoke with my wife about it, who has been on ADHD meds a lot longer than I have, and that’s what she told me as well. Your meds help your body function. Not taking them while you’re sick is counterproductive

This just sounds like someone without much gaming experience to me. My dad was pretty much the same when he tried Mario 64

Then if the tool is just for managing the problem with your ADHD, I would say your manager’s question was inappropriate.

“My concern is, would you be able to follow the process and do the task if you were to lose access to this tool you have built?”

If that tool was a wheelchair, do you think they would be asking the same question? They’re clearly misunderstanding. The tool exists because it’s already known that, without it, you can’t follow the process and do the task, due to your disability. Really, they should be providing you with these accomodations. Allowing you to develop them yourself is the bare minimum

Is there a reason you showed your boss the tool? I would expect any given coworker to keep something like that to themselves, both so it doesn’t get stolen, and so they don’t potentially get accused of “slacking” as it seems like your manager might be hinting at.

If your tool is too good they might make it mandatory, and then everyone will speed up, putting you in the same hole you started in. Imo, your personal accessibility tools and systems are your own concern, and are only to be shared if you so desire.

Weed helps for me lol

I’ve also found that if I have enough projects, I can often switch between them to keep myself feeling good. So I have like 5 different fiction pieces in writing, I’m in the middle of three different books, and twice as many TV shows. I have a handful of videogames I know I can play in short bursts.

For me, it feels like I’ve embraced “being ADHD.” People often tease us for being distractible and never finishing anything, but I think I’m starting to realize I just operate on a longer timescale than most. As long as I have enough bodies in orbit, I can keep myself balanced between them, because I’ll always have somewhere to go to find myself

Sounds like they might be trying to keep in touch because you told them you’re not doing well. If they know you’re depressed, they probably just want you to know they care about you. People are usually pretty nice. If you really want to be left alone though, I’m sure they’ll understand if you take the time to explain how you’re feeling. I bet they just don’t want you to get hurt

Sounds like you know your worth. That is absolutely shitty of them to increase your in-office days in the final moments of hiring. It is an asshole move, regardless of the reason. Maybe just someone in the process promised something they weren’t authorized too, but it’s still a choice not to honor that promise.

I wish you luck in finding something better. This is the worst time to look for jobs since 2008

My wife has this same problem. The more people tell her to watch something, the less she’s able to. I have to get her into things by watching them on my own and luring her into the room when she’s nearby

How long have you been on these meds? Sounds to me like they’re not really helping. I felt a lot like you described before I got on my meds, but mine reduce the stress I feel, and make it easier for me to get up and act at the same time.

You mean it’s not normal to reach that point and then be paralyzed by the loop? 🙃

Just make sure you get back to it before another project disorganizes all your screws again

It’s a skill you can learn. If you’re into TTRPGs, I’ve found that can be a great way to practice, because the format is engaging, and the nature of the game benefits from equal contributions. I try to make characters that focus on setting up other members of the party in different ways. When we’re in combat, I try to involve other characters in tactics, and in roleplay, I make an effort to involve everyone at the table. GMing is especially good for this, as you want your party to be doing most of the talking, and you want everyone to be having fun.

As I’ve played more, and interacted in other casual social situations, I’ve definitely gotten better at filling an appropriate role in a conversation. I’m the host! It’s my job to make sure everyone is comfortable and engaged. Usually that means asking smart questions and getting people onto topics they naturally enjoy, usually to do with their own lives. Shared interests are a bonus (and often the roots of a friendship). And it’s something that I can do anywhere, even if I’m not actually hosting the gathering, because it just comes off as being genuine

I met a person like this, and married her. It’s great. I never have to worry about keeping the conversation going, and can just enjoy being with her and contributing when it’s natural for me

But someone did mention another bit of information, which I fell down a wikipedia rabbit hole on for about 2 hours! So maybe now I can read the article

Edit: I did it! I also watched two and a half YouTube videos about homesteading.

This third type describes my wife perfectly. She’s had lots of other tentative diagnoses like bpd and autism, but has still been struggling to work through it all, and find an effective combination of medications. She actually takes antipsychotics, as well as a high dose of hydroxyzine as needed in emergencies

This is what my wife does as well. She has a really hard time getting up in the morning otherwise

If the US collapses in the next decade or so, we may have our chance again. Free the Caribbean!

Depends where you lived. Not everywhere developed the same or even any methods of counting time below day/night

I’m taking 30, and my doctor told me that’s that max they can prescribe. I’m ~175lbs, and this seems like the right amount for me. I have really high tolerances to other substances, like alcohol, and caffeine, so I expected I’d need a higher dosage, and we arrived at 30 pretty quickly.

Having a smaller dose to take later in the day sounds nice. I often feel my meds wear off a few hours before bed, when I’d like to be focusing on a hobby, which I’d love their help on. I think I’ll ask my doctor about breaking up my dosage into two at my next appointment.

If 10mg feels like it’s working for you, and you think the 5mg boost will be enough, stick with it and don’t worry about comparing to other people’s dosages. For me, my meds working feels like more energy throughout the week, and more ability to focus on and start tasks that otherwise could have bored or paralyzed me. I’d recommend you focus on getting to something like that with your meds if you can, while minimizing side effects (I’ve only ever had some slightly increased emotional volotility in the first couple weeks I first started n Adderall).

You are being abused. Get your meds.