Mine too. He was on a decline for a while, so I began the grieving process before he passed away. His one year deathiversay hit a lot harder than I expected. A friend of mine said he gets hit every year, and has learned to expect it

I let the feelings pass through me. Sometimes I use the Litany of Fear if it’s really bad, just to remind myself that the acute pain is temporary. I used to share pictures of my jobs with him, and we’d talk about work and different things we had done to finish difficult jobs. I miss him the most when I take a picture of something I’ve done that looks great. It’s the little stab of remembering he’s not here

My faith helps a little, but it doesn’t dull the pain of missing him. Even though I think I’ll see him again, I can’t see him now. If you have a faith in seeing your dad again, hold onto it, and know that missing him is normal and okay. If you don’t have that hope, cherish the memories you have. As long as his name is spoken, he isn’t fully gone