Gestures broadly

That we voluntarily face our lifelong fear of needles once a week so that we can be a girl. Yes we basically just shoot up pure cooties all the time, yes it’s extremely worth it.

That I’m in fact NOT dead and she should probably plan for that.

Being a few months from 40 when you were told by all your doctors you won’t make it past 18 has made things very complicated and difficult

How much I get paid and how poor I still feel.

A laptop that I use every now and then today was already manufactured when I was 10 years old.

That I actually WILL carry a calculator in my pocket all the time, and use it to talk to people across the world

My 10 years old self would not believe the current state of dating and distrust among people in general. Erich Fromm described it in 1952, but in Europe it arrived much later.

Also the lack of attention caused by smartphone and the almost disappearance of casual conversations on the bus, the train, etc. Sometimes people is afraid of casual conversations with strangers.

it’s worse than you imagined… yes, even worse.

There will be rockets that land themselves back on the ground after launching sattelites, but the people that make them are evil.

Me in 1998 watching ZDTV and playing quake and loving everything about computers and the internet.

Me in 2026 me straggling to even like computers and loathing the internet.

“It’s actually downhill from here lol”

Just being a rad dude, honestly. My past self would be so stoked

That I didn’t grow up to be a train driver

Oh and gay and married

That I’m alive, on the other hand, that I have probably less than 2 years left to live 🤷‍♂️

…that my marriage is crumbling. And that I am now atheist (completely separate things BTW).